maniatonight

mania tonight because I had racing (very clever/very creative) thoughts earlier. And because it's 3:15 am, about 22 hours since I awoke last. I've taken two vicadins/ 3 lithiums/ 1 trazadone and I did not get sleepy or slow down hardly at all. I am now creating a blog, having just read my first ever blog about an hour ago.
I know what's got me going, my oldest son graduated from high school about 12 hours ago and I'm very stimulated about that, especially having raised him myself since he was 10 years old. He's a good guy. He must be, he's got really tight friends and all their parents love him. I think I taught him to be lovable . . . what a gift that was. When I got home from the graduation, in the mail box was a letter from him sent from his english class, it was a thank you letter to me as his mom and what a good job I've done. Do you know how successful I feel? Keeping in mind I've been a manic/depressive all my life but only in treatment for the last six years.
Then I'm also stoked (excited) because I got my first teaching job, summer school, and it starts in one week. I will be teaching mild/moderate special ed, kindergarten-fourth graders, I will have 14 students. I have their folders and am trying to absorb something about each of them prior to our first day together. I have had a long list of jobs. I used to be a journalist, graphic artist, typesetter, publisher, business owner, childcare operator, legal assistant, cosmotologist, beauty consultant and much more AND I'm only 50 years old. Now, fearless woman that I am I am starting a special ed teaching career. It's a fit though, I've been assistant teaching in special ed for two and a half years now. I will be great. And it will be good for me and I will be good for those lovely children whose lives will cross mine. That's all for now. Must see if this blog thing is going to work.